I have the goal to get in shape this summer, but I think it may have led me to live one of my worst nightmares today. Like most people, I’m not an attractive person when I work out and will therefore workout with only close friends. Today, during my workout, the bridge program that I work at decided to tour the gym while I was on the treadmill. I’m fairly certain my students saw me although I was very plugged into my music and trying to convince myself to focus and not break concentration.
And then I thought, is it really a bad thing that they saw me? Sure, maybe I’m trying to convince myself that it isn’t so that I feel better, but they saw me working out. These incoming Freshman saw me make time for self-care. They saw someone who is in a mentor role, someone who works long days, someone who doesn’t have a long time, make time for health.
This is something that I want to keep up. Although I tend to dress nice (er, nicer) on days I teach/work with students, I want to take better care of myself and my health instead of being their graduate TA who looks entirely strung out by the third week in the semester. I need to be a mentor in more than just school work. I want to show that it is important to take care of yourself. I think I focus on the school and good student aspects too much. I need to be both.
On top of that, I need to get in shape for my own personal benefit as well. It’s something that is really easy to let go of. I used to work out every day, but life and grad school and such prevented me from thinking that I could keep that up. So, now, I’m back at it.